In this book with autobiographical touches the French (with Moroccon roots) or Moroccon (with French wings) writer Abdellah Taïa writes about his search for a loving relationship.
When he was about twelve years old he was raped by a few men, an event that scarred his life. With this burden of his past he travels and discovers and searches for a loving relationship in his homo-erotical longings. He wants to give himself unconditionally, but what he finds are men who want to “love” in a conditional way. Men who enter into a relationship, that misses out on the relationship. Men who want to be together, just for the time being, just for pleasure of the one-night-stand.
Abdellah searches for love, but what he finds is a disappointment, a lack of stability, a state of mind and body that is tragic. His dreams shatter on the rocks between sheets. His passion to be part of the cinematic world flounders at daybreak. He is looking for fullfilment and left empy-handed, no matter where he travels.
Abdellah Taïa – Une mélancolie arabe – 2008